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A Better Plan
Wanting to disappear, I curled into myself and buried my head under the soft pillow. If I made myself small enough, I could hide from the last hours of my dad’s life.
You wrapped around me, wanting to shield me from my grief.
“No more suffering,” you said but I wasn’t sure who’s suffering you meant.
“It feels like I killed him,” I confessed.
“He begged me to push him off a dock and leave him. I couldn’t do it,” you whispered.
“That’s just stupid,” I lifted my head with a soft chuckle, “God, I’m going to miss that ridiculous old cowboy.”
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In control until his last breath, my father died exactly 24 hours after he told the hospice nurse, “This will all be over by tomorrow.” The story is true and I’m so glad that my husband didn’t agree to my dad’s demand. Calling hospice was exactly the right thing to do. He had a good death with my sister and I at his bedside. I couldn’t have wished for a better ending to his story. And a day doesn’t go by that I don’t miss him and his tales and his sense of humor.
For more 100 word stories sail over to Rochelle Wisoff-Fields‘ website and follow the dock to Friday Fictionners. (Oops, I guess it’s a bridge and not a dock.)
Wow. This is told with love and control, devoid of any sentimentality. It’s beautiful
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Thank you Neil.
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Loved that last line. It’s a beautiful way to grieve 🙂
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I think it’s the ridiculous that I love the most in my friends and family. Thank you Ansumani.
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What a beautiful tale. I hope when my time comes, I can die with dignity and grace–and of course– some really clever and witty parting line.
Your Dad sounds like one hellava cool guy.
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Well I hope you don’t need that “killer last line” for many years. Thank you for the lovely comment. My dad was dry, sarcastic and could spin a yarn.
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I agree. Thanks for sharing Tracey
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Really touching story, thanks for sharing. And well written.
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Thank you Iain
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A moving little story, with an uplifting finale. Nicely done Tracey.
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Thank you Sandra. Your comment would look nice on a headstone. 🙂
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Very sad with a lovely last line.
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Thanks Ali
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Dear Tracey,
You have a real knack for telling a straight forward story that goes right to the heart. Well done.
Shalom,
Rochelle
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Thank you Rochelle
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Souch a touching, heart-warming story, even more so since it’s true. You had an amazing father. I remember earlier stories your wrote about him.
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He’s never far from my thoughts.
Thank you for your kind comment,
Tracey
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A very touching conversation, we do miss those we loved.
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I try to remember the laughter most of all. Thank you Michael.
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This touched a nerve! I won’t go into details, but my own father had similar thoughts about speeding along what he saw as the inevitable process, then went to a fantastic hospice where he died peacefully early the second day there, after spending a last good day with my mother. After a long and full life some people are ready – hope I’m as brave!
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I’ve buried both parents and my oldest sister in the last 4 years. Two died peacefully at home and one died tortured in a hospital. I hope I get a choice. Thank you for commenting.
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that was lovely, touching and heartbreaking all at the same time. What a great way to remember your Dad 🙂
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Thank you Helen.
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great first line. it couldn’t be any better than that.
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I distinctly remember doing that exact thing. Trying to make myself so small. It’s weird what we remember when we are with someone when they die.
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Beautiful story, even lovelier for being true.
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Thank you Liz.
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It was a lovely story, Tracey. Thank you so much for sharing it. When it’s time for a parent or other relative to leave us that would be the best way. 🙂 — Suzanne
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You mean hospice and not pushed off a dock, right? Just teasing you. Thank you Patricia.
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Your dad sounds like mine. I hope they are hanging out in heaven with the rest of the cool dads.
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🙂
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